Posted in Korea, Teaching, Uncategorized

Signing away freedom

March 2016 marked two years for me in Korea. two years and my third company in the same field.

While I have said this on multiple occasions, this time I am fighting the urge to quite my job and move on. But if only life was that easy. Every day, I feel more and more trapped in my work place and the tiny room that I should be calling ‘home’.
I know, you are probably wondering “what is stopping you if you are that unhappy?”. It’s pretty simple. Contract.

Being an ESL teacher in Korea means that you have to get an E2 visa which is bonded with your employer. Once you want to stop your employment with the company you have signed a contract with, you have to get a ‘Letter of release’ and you can transfer to another visa (D-10 or another E2).

Sounds simple, right? Wrong.

Most companies refuse to give you a letter of release if your contract is not finished. Honestly, if you have completed your one year contract, there is no need for you to obtain a ‘letter of release’ anyway. The only people who need a ‘letter of release’ are those who wish to finish their contract earlier than one year or, those who have been fired and wish to stay in Korea. But when a company refuses to give you one, it is almost impossible to do anything about it.

When I signed my contract, I saw that there was a section which said that I will not receive a release letter if I end my contract before the 1 year mark. Even if I give the requested 3 months notice before leaving. I know I shouldn’t have signed the contract if I didn’t agree with that term. The problem was, I didn’t want to face another hard time of trying to find a new job. It took me three months the first time, I wasn’t going to go through that again. So when I was offered a job on the second day of unemployment, I went for it. It was a reputable company funded by Seoul government, what could possibly be wrong? Honestly, I love this company. The staff, the fun classes, my students, but teaching just isn’t for me.

When I came to Korea, I came with the hopes of teaching English for a year and either start my career as a journalist/editor or go back to university here to get my masters degree. My first job was a disaster. For my second job, I got promoted fast and I loved it, but then management changed and it was a nightmare. So, when I hit my two year mark in my third school, I couldn’t stop thinking about how I have wasted two years of my life. Two years where I could have been doing other things to do with my degree and my dreams.

So, next Tuesday marks three months until my contract is finished. Within these three months, I will be searching for jobs and blogging more in order to get back in the flow of writing. I will try to write blog posts at the least 3 times a week. If I fall behind, scold me guys!!

This week, I have already posted twice, so I will post another on Friday. I am going to try something new so, keep an eye out!

Posted in Korea, Uncategorized

2016

Well, 2016 has started! We are on the 8th day and it is my sisters birthday! Happy Birthday Dalia!!

I’m sitting at my desk at work. I’ve finished my assignments for the week and I thought, this is the perfect time for a blog post.

But I have no idea what to write about.

I feel like this is the issue with me and my blog. I don’t have a solid ground. Nothing that I can constantly write about. No category that I can continuously write on. Nothing that I feel passionate about enough to make the theme of my blog.

In 2014 and 2015, I focused mostly on blogging about my dates and the crazy experiences that I had. While it was good for my blog traffic wise, dating is draining. I found myself dating people just for the sake of hoping to meet someone to settle down with or an experience that I can write a blog about.
Of course, like most people I know, I had bad luck with dating and it was probably because I was looking for someone to love me. But I also didn’t like what I was doing to people. I felt bad for the few people who I only continued dating just so that I could write a blog post about them. I was aware that I hurt two people in specific. They never found my blog… at least I don’t think they did… but when I was fed up of dating them because I was never really interested in them, I realised that I was doing the same thing that some guys have probably done to me.
I know and those of you who follow my blog or know me personally know that I was extremely hurt by one person in particular in 2015, The Model. Even to this day I feel hurt when I think about him. I feel as though he hurt me more harshly than I have hurt a few guys, but it doesn’t make me any better than him. I wasn’t considering the guys feelings. I was selfish.
After The Model, I didn’t really make many posts about the people I’ve dated. I actually went on fewer dates and chose the people who I considered dating more carefully. But the main reason why I stopped was because I was ashamed to show guys who I dated seriously my blog.

When I am dating guys they often ask me what my hobby is, I tell them writing of course and eventually it comes out that I have a blog. They always ask me what my blog is about, funnily enough I don’t think they would appreciate me saying ‘Ah you know, the normal things like the guys I date and how weird they are or how in love with them I am.’
When I was dating The Model, he asked to see my blog and I couldn’t show it to him. I wanted him to know everything about me but I knew that I had written about him and even worse, other guys. He probably would have been okay with what I wrote about him before he tore my heart out. But anyway! My point is, I wanted him to see my blog, I valued his opinion and wanted him to be a part of everything that I did. Although I don’t update my blog as regularly as I should, I love this blog. It’s mine.
Even after The Model, I wanted to show my blog to other guys but I knew I couldn’t. Even adding each other on Facebook was too risky.

Did I just go off topic??

Anyway! I want to change my blog. I don’t know yet what I will change it to, it will probably still be personal but just not about dating. I know you guys loved it but it’s hard now! I promise that I will try to find something just as interesting to write about. And I value all of your opinions so much. I hope that you will make suggestions and give me feedback on the things that I write about so I know what you like!

On top of new topics, I am also going to try to blog more consistently. To start, I will post every other Friday. If I am stuck for ideas, I will make a silly post haha! I just have to get into the habit of posting at certain times.

So! Let’s get this show on the road! I have 3 and a half hours left until the end of today, unless I get told to do something else. If I can think of something I will start planning the new blog! Give me suggestionsssssss!

Thanks for always reading guys! I really appreciate it!

 

Posted in Korea, Teaching, Uncategorized, Unemployed in Korea

Well… that was awkward!!

Hey guys!

After my last post about being unemployed in Korea, I haven’t posted anything. The reason why is that, the day after I wrote that post, I had 2 job interviews. I was offered the job at my place of choice and I accepted! The catch was, I had to pack up all my things and move to the new apartment. I have been in Korea for 1 year and 8 months. In that time, I have bought many things and I have a cat. So, packing and moving was the worst thing ever.

But anyway! I got a new job, the day after I was preparing myself for a long wait and a hard time on the job search.

However, since starting my new job (the following week after the interview), I have had no time to do anything apart from sleep! I am writing this from my desk as we speak and the first time I have had a chance to in two weeks!

My new school is amazing! I am working at an English village camp in Seoul. It is so fun!
It is very different from both jobs which I have had in Korea. I am teaching almost all the time. But the lessons are much more fun than the few lessons I taught at my previous schools.
The staff are amazing!! And, I have the chance to meet different students every week! (I will write a blog post about my school soon as it is such an interesting place!)

So, I am not unemployed any more, which means I have to think of another topic to start blogging about. Since I am back in Seoul, I am sure I can find something more interesting to write about. Maybe reviews on different cafes?? We’ll see.

If you have any suggestions let me know and I will make sure that I have time to start blogging more often now that I am finally settled in!

For those of you who think I should carry on with the unemployed section, let me know! I have a lot of experience in being unemployed! hehe

 

Posted in Korea

Inspirational sad day

Today is problem one of the first times I have had a bad day at this job. My day wasn’t even bad but something extremely sad and touching happened while I was at work.

I was sitting in the staff office at 5:45 waiting for my next class to start at 6:45, when the owner of my school comes in and says to me.
‘Dina, you have a class at 6pm?’
‘No I have a class at 6:45pm’
We actually teach the same class but he is there Korean teacher and I am their English teacher. He asks me if I can teach them at 6pm instead of 6:45pm. I think yes, thank you. Because it means that I can finish teaching at 6:40pm and then go home or if not, do paper work until 7:20pm.
When I asked why, I did not expect to hear this story.

He explained to me that someone came in and asked for lessons. This person is disabled (handicapped). His wish is to learn English. He wants to learn so that he has more chances of getting a job or living abroad so he can live a better life. However, because of his disabilities, every company has turned him away.
I’m not sure of his age but when I saw him, I could tell he is older then other students at our school because we only teach Kindergarten and Elementary.
My director/ boss said he will teach this boy because he can see how happy it makes him.

You are probably thinking, other companies rejected him because it is unfair to take his money. I even thought the same but my director is teaching him without taking any money. My eyes were watering when he told me about this person who has been rejected to education. The one thing that he is actively searching for and I thought to myself, what world are we living in? And how amazing is my director?

Education is one thing that everyone takes for granted at one stage or another. But it meant so much to this young man that even after rejection because of his disabilities, he kept going to different companies and schools until he found  someone that accepted him.
Allowing one student to enter your academy for free is not going to cause bankruptcy.

The kindness that I saw from my director was so touching and I was so sad that this young man was rejected by so many companies.
My director is teaching him English from scratch. I am going to keep asking for updates on this student because he has touched something in me today that made me realise again that we live in a horrible world. But there are amazing people like him and my director who give this world a little bit of hope.

Be kind.