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Final week!

So guys, I have been working at this school for almost a year. Finally, my contract is coming to an end!

Although this place isn’t as bad as my co-workers and I make out, I feel like I have been counting down the days until the end of my contract since my second month. With just one week left of my contract, here is a quick review of my time here and what I am hoping to do in the future!

This is my third school in Korea. I must say, I have had excellent days and terrible days. It is so hard to tell which one I had more of. But there is one thing for sure, the staff here are amazing. I have met awesome people and made friendships which I am sure will last even after I finish working here. It’s almost like a little family. There have been dramas but when I think about my last 2 months working here, everyone has gotten along with each other.
We give a lot of stick to our team leaders, but again, I think this is one of the nicest management teams I have had experience with. Not only in Korea but back home too. It’s come to light to me in the last couple of weeks that team leaders have to do things that the director tells them too. The problems are coming from the director.

The whole time I have worked here, I haven’t really had a problem with working. Although I do complain a lot to my co-workers! The biggest issue I had was the apartment. I already wrote a post about that so I won’t mention it much here. You can go and read it here.
I always knew, but it put it in concrete that  your home has a big affect on your mood and productivity. I was and still am so unhappy in my apartment that my mood would be down all the time. There was never one day where I woke up and felt happy and in a good mood. I always wake up thinking ‘Well, I better get up and go to work.’ There was never a day where I thought, ‘I want to go home and just chill.’
I also wasn’t getting good nights sleep. Nightmares and hearing traffic outside or the neighbours. My door lock randomly ringing. So many things that distracted me from getting a good nights sleep.

Not getting enough sleep, paired with teaching classes of 19-52 students in the morning, is never something that I will get used to. Yes, the classes I taught were fun and sometimes interesting, I don’t think there is anything that makes teaching 52 students okay. It’s draining. Sometimes there are good schools, with kids that actually want to learn and enjoy your classes. But most of the times, we had terrible schools with children who swear, don’t take part in class and constantly talk over you.

Overall, as much as I complain, (and I know I complain a lot so I have mentioned it several times in this post!) I enjoyed working at this school. I am only sad to leave the amazing teachers I have met working here.

So the future?

Well, as you guys may or may not know, I studied Journalism and I still want to be a journalist. Unfortunately, finding work other than an English teacher in Korea is hard. I am looking for journalism jobs and I am hoping to blog more. I wish to make a living out of my blog, but I know I still have a long way to go.

I have taught for over 2 years now and I know it is not a career that I want to continue doing.
So, if you have any journalist friends in Korea, please let me know and let them know about me!

This coming week, I am going to be busier than ever. But after I finish working here, I am hoping that I will have enough time to blog more!

Until then, wish me luck and stay tuned!

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Signing away freedom

March 2016 marked two years for me in Korea. two years and my third company in the same field.

While I have said this on multiple occasions, this time I am fighting the urge to quite my job and move on. But if only life was that easy. Every day, I feel more and more trapped in my work place and the tiny room that I should be calling ‘home’.
I know, you are probably wondering “what is stopping you if you are that unhappy?”. It’s pretty simple. Contract.

Being an ESL teacher in Korea means that you have to get an E2 visa which is bonded with your employer. Once you want to stop your employment with the company you have signed a contract with, you have to get a ‘Letter of release’ and you can transfer to another visa (D-10 or another E2).

Sounds simple, right? Wrong.

Most companies refuse to give you a letter of release if your contract is not finished. Honestly, if you have completed your one year contract, there is no need for you to obtain a ‘letter of release’ anyway. The only people who need a ‘letter of release’ are those who wish to finish their contract earlier than one year or, those who have been fired and wish to stay in Korea. But when a company refuses to give you one, it is almost impossible to do anything about it.

When I signed my contract, I saw that there was a section which said that I will not receive a release letter if I end my contract before the 1 year mark. Even if I give the requested 3 months notice before leaving. I know I shouldn’t have signed the contract if I didn’t agree with that term. The problem was, I didn’t want to face another hard time of trying to find a new job. It took me three months the first time, I wasn’t going to go through that again. So when I was offered a job on the second day of unemployment, I went for it. It was a reputable company funded by Seoul government, what could possibly be wrong? Honestly, I love this company. The staff, the fun classes, my students, but teaching just isn’t for me.

When I came to Korea, I came with the hopes of teaching English for a year and either start my career as a journalist/editor or go back to university here to get my masters degree. My first job was a disaster. For my second job, I got promoted fast and I loved it, but then management changed and it was a nightmare. So, when I hit my two year mark in my third school, I couldn’t stop thinking about how I have wasted two years of my life. Two years where I could have been doing other things to do with my degree and my dreams.

So, next Tuesday marks three months until my contract is finished. Within these three months, I will be searching for jobs and blogging more in order to get back in the flow of writing. I will try to write blog posts at the least 3 times a week. If I fall behind, scold me guys!!

This week, I have already posted twice, so I will post another on Friday. I am going to try something new so, keep an eye out!

Posted in Korea, Uncategorized

2016

Well, 2016 has started! We are on the 8th day and it is my sisters birthday! Happy Birthday Dalia!!

I’m sitting at my desk at work. I’ve finished my assignments for the week and I thought, this is the perfect time for a blog post.

But I have no idea what to write about.

I feel like this is the issue with me and my blog. I don’t have a solid ground. Nothing that I can constantly write about. No category that I can continuously write on. Nothing that I feel passionate about enough to make the theme of my blog.

In 2014 and 2015, I focused mostly on blogging about my dates and the crazy experiences that I had. While it was good for my blog traffic wise, dating is draining. I found myself dating people just for the sake of hoping to meet someone to settle down with or an experience that I can write a blog about.
Of course, like most people I know, I had bad luck with dating and it was probably because I was looking for someone to love me. But I also didn’t like what I was doing to people. I felt bad for the few people who I only continued dating just so that I could write a blog post about them. I was aware that I hurt two people in specific. They never found my blog… at least I don’t think they did… but when I was fed up of dating them because I was never really interested in them, I realised that I was doing the same thing that some guys have probably done to me.
I know and those of you who follow my blog or know me personally know that I was extremely hurt by one person in particular in 2015, The Model. Even to this day I feel hurt when I think about him. I feel as though he hurt me more harshly than I have hurt a few guys, but it doesn’t make me any better than him. I wasn’t considering the guys feelings. I was selfish.
After The Model, I didn’t really make many posts about the people I’ve dated. I actually went on fewer dates and chose the people who I considered dating more carefully. But the main reason why I stopped was because I was ashamed to show guys who I dated seriously my blog.

When I am dating guys they often ask me what my hobby is, I tell them writing of course and eventually it comes out that I have a blog. They always ask me what my blog is about, funnily enough I don’t think they would appreciate me saying ‘Ah you know, the normal things like the guys I date and how weird they are or how in love with them I am.’
When I was dating The Model, he asked to see my blog and I couldn’t show it to him. I wanted him to know everything about me but I knew that I had written about him and even worse, other guys. He probably would have been okay with what I wrote about him before he tore my heart out. But anyway! My point is, I wanted him to see my blog, I valued his opinion and wanted him to be a part of everything that I did. Although I don’t update my blog as regularly as I should, I love this blog. It’s mine.
Even after The Model, I wanted to show my blog to other guys but I knew I couldn’t. Even adding each other on Facebook was too risky.

Did I just go off topic??

Anyway! I want to change my blog. I don’t know yet what I will change it to, it will probably still be personal but just not about dating. I know you guys loved it but it’s hard now! I promise that I will try to find something just as interesting to write about. And I value all of your opinions so much. I hope that you will make suggestions and give me feedback on the things that I write about so I know what you like!

On top of new topics, I am also going to try to blog more consistently. To start, I will post every other Friday. If I am stuck for ideas, I will make a silly post haha! I just have to get into the habit of posting at certain times.

So! Let’s get this show on the road! I have 3 and a half hours left until the end of today, unless I get told to do something else. If I can think of something I will start planning the new blog! Give me suggestionsssssss!

Thanks for always reading guys! I really appreciate it!

 

Posted in dating, Korea, Teaching

2015, where have you gone?!

The year is coming to an end!! AGAIN! I swear it was just New Years Day a few weeks ago.

When I think about this year, I realise that I have actually done a lot, but the time seems like it has gone so fast!

So, here is a recap of my year!

January
I actually don’t remember much about last January. The main thing I remember was, I forgot my sisters birthday and I was sad about that for about 2 weeks. Oh! And I had the chance to work with my best friend, known to you guys as Johnny Bravo. Now that I think about it, this month was pretty important. My boss who I adored, left the school and was replaced by another amazing person, but it was only for a few weeks. So when my old boss came back, he fired one of the staff members in late December. In January, my boss asked if I knew anybody who needed a job. I brang in my best friend and he started working on the same day! Even though I only worked with him for a month, it was great!

February
My company was bought by new owners at the end of January. Since the school semester starts in February in Korea, most of the teachers at my school were let go or decided it was time for them to leave. I was nervous as I was the only foreign teacher left as unfortunately, Johnny Bravo couldn’t work any longer.
I watched my first kindergarten class graduate and I was able to pick which class I wanted to teach next.
I moved apartments, to the best apartment I have had yet.
When the new teachers came, I made a great friend who I am sure I will stay in contact with even when she leaves Korea. I also met a teacher who I hated.
And then, I was promoted to Head Teacher!

March
In March, I finally went back to London for one week! It was amazing to see family and friends again but it was obviously far too short.
When I got back to Korea, I was working and my work load kept increasing. I didn’t mind since I love responsibility.
One of my best friends, Wizard of Oz, followed the yellow brick road back home. =( Sorry that I am not sorry for that horrible line.

April
In April, I got my kitten Aurora! A co-worker of mine told me about a pet store where she got her kitten and she also told me about a kitten that was in the pet store. I went along out of curiosity and also because I needed a pet. After seeing my baby Roari again when I went back to London, I realized I needed a fur baby with me. I went to the pet shop, I fell in love with her, I asked the vet to keep her for me, I went back the next day and got her. The best decision I have ever made in Korea!
My birthday! Johnny Bravo gave me the best birthday party ever! But I knew that I would be saying goodbye to him very soon.

Aurora 1

May
Johnny Bravo
had to leave Korea and I was heart broken. After just saying goodbye to The Wizard of Oz in March, my baby brother Johnny Bravo had to leave too. I cried like a baby on many occasions. But even though he is back in England, I think of him everyday and we speak to each other as much as possible. I love you Johnny Bravo!

June – August
I don’t remember much about these months. Summer in Korea is always a blur because the heat. I remember being heart broken by the infamous Model. 
I also remember that my boss resigned and this is when my year started to go bad. As you guys have read in my previous blog post ‘Goodbye.’ I had a terrible time at work after my boss left.

September – October
From September to the 15th of October, I went through hell. I couldn’t decide if I was going to continue on in my job or if I was going to find a new job. I ended up leaving on the 15th of October after arguing with my director about my severance pay. When I got my pay, I left. The following week, I had an interview in an amazing place. English Village. And I got the job on the day that I went to the interview. I started working the following week. But with a new job, I had to move houses. While I was moving back to Seoul, I knew my apartment wasn’t going to be as nice as my old apartment but I had no choice. So I moved and you can read about it here.

November – December
In November, I settled into my job and actually started teaching. I also met an amazing guy. I knew him for a while before, since I was living in Bucheon, but things only got serious in November. The problem is, he lives in Gimpo, but we are making it work by taking turns to go to each others houses over the weekend or sometimes during the week.
Even though our relationship is new, it has been a little bit stressful at times. He speaks the tiniest bit of English, so I have to rack my brains for all my Korean. And then sometimes we have miscommunication problems because of culture. But most of the time, I am so happy to be with him and this seems to be the first proper relationship since Prince Charming.
I don’t want to jinx anything though!

And now, it is exactly one week until Christmas! I was hoping to be able to spend this Christmas at home with my family, but since I had to change jobs, I can’t take a holiday and the downside of working at an English village is that we have a winter camp that starts the week after Christmas. So no break. On the plus side, I have someone who I am in a relationship with to spend Christmas with this year! Considering Christmas is a couple holiday in Korea. How many times am I going to say Christmas? Christmas.

I am looking forward to what the new year will bring. I am thinking about what my new years resolution should be. Even though I usually don’t keep them!

I hope you all had a great year and I will try to update again before Christmas! If not, Merry Christmas and my next post will be about what I did, if I do anything interesting.