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Missing Seoul.

This is an entry in my diary that I wrote yesterday morning. I wrote this as soon as I woke up and I just want to post it here. I enjoy reading personal blogs and blogs that are raw thoughts, so I thought I’d have a go at it!

Missing Seoul.

The view form my class room in Hanyang university.

This day, two months ago, I was getting ready to go to Seoul for one month. On June 28th, I boarded my flight from London Heathrow to Abu Dhabi and from Abu Dhabi to Incheon South Korea.

I had the best & craziest month of my life. I met amazing people and seriously fell in love with Korea. A month flew by so fast, it felt like two weeks.

On the 28th of July, the torturous pain began because I was leaving Seoul.

I knew from the very start that saying goodbye to the people I met would be hard, but I didn’t predict that I would be so attached to South Korea. I felt like I was saying goodbye to my home. That I would be going to a foreign land. That I would never return.

Today is the 28th of August. I have been back in London for a month. Not one day has gone past where I haven’t thought about Korea.

I have plans to return to Korea next year, but until then, I will have an empty void in my heart, soul and mind. That void will be filled when I return to Korea. Until then, I can only reminisce.

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Not True.

As I am in Korea, I have been reading blogs about Seoul.

I am fed up of seeing posts about Korean guys only liking Korean girls and light girls. Or Korean people looking at black people funny and ignoring foreigners when they ask for help. This is not true.

I don’t know if people who are writing these blogs have actually been to Seoul, or any part of Korea for that matter, but I really think they haven’t. I’ve been here for one month and I have not suffered any racism, and this is what you are accusing them of when you say they ignore you or look at you funny.

I’ve had more problems in London than I have had in Seoul.

Everyone here is kind! Yes they may stare a little bit, but they are just curious! You can not assume that they are thinking the worst. I have an example:

I am here to study, so when I have a break I go to the shop located inside the university. The women who works in the shop always stared at me funny. I noticed but it didn’t bother me. After 2 weeks, she told my Korean friend that I am very beautiful.

Now tell me, if I had been rude or thought the worse about this lady, she would probably still think I’m pretty but she would not tell me. She wasn’t thinking anything bad!

Every shop I’ve been into, every person I’ve met, has been nothing but nice to me! I get a few stares, yes, but who cares?!?! People stare no matter where you go! I find myself looking at people for longer than two seconds too!

Also, I have had several dates since I have been here. I’ve had guys come up to me and tell me I am pretty. I am considered very dark in comparison to a Korean person.

We should not generalise people. It is like saying all Black guys like girls with big butts, or that all white guys like blondes.

Koreans are the most friendliest race I have met.

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=[ (=D pt. 3).

If you haven’t already, read my posts =D  & =D pt. 2 before reading this.

So, I purchased two tickets to see Jeremy Passion in London on the 31st of March. Since none of my friends listen to Passion, I didn’t want to go by myself so I thought, I’ll purchase two tickets and then figure out who to go with. That’s when I realised that I could ask the guy that I like!

I had it all planned out! I would ask him on Friday (yesterday).

So I went into uni, and the weather was amazing! Everyone was out on the grass on campus and having some cool drinks. Then, I saw him! He looked so hot! Then he disappeared and showed up with a girl. The girl I always used to see him with. They were holding hands, hugging, kissing and it was so heart breaking. =[

I also found out that someone I know has known him since college. I asked her a few questions about him (I know it sounds stalker-ish!). She mentioned a long term relationship. But like I said in my previous posts, he said that he was single. Now he is back with her.

I don’t know if I am happy that I didn’t ask him out or ‘make a move’, or if I regret not doing anything.

The first thing I thought was, I should have said something. But then I thought about what would have happened if I did say something. I would have still got hurt. If it went well, we would have went out on a date, got to know each other more, I would fall for him even more and then he would have gotten back together with his ex.

But now I am thinking, what did I have to lose? It could have went the other way and I might have been with him now.

Now, I am kicking myself because this isn’t the first time this has happened to me with a guy. I am too shy. And even with all my friends telling me to go and talk to him I didn’t have the guts to. And I really need to grow some balls.

It’s very rare for me to like someone so much. Every time I do like someone that much, I don’t get anything out of it.

I know it’s rich coming from me, since I have no balls but, girls, please, if you like someone, do something about it because if you don’t another girl who is more confident will get him. I wish I had seen that sooner. And the worst thing that could happen is that you will know that he doesn’t feel the same. That is actually a good thing because you know where you stand and you have closure.

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