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Final week!

So guys, I have been working at this school for almost a year. Finally, my contract is coming to an end!

Although this place isn’t as bad as my co-workers and I make out, I feel like I have been counting down the days until the end of my contract since my second month. With just one week left of my contract, here is a quick review of my time here and what I am hoping to do in the future!

This is my third school in Korea. I must say, I have had excellent days and terrible days. It is so hard to tell which one I had more of. But there is one thing for sure, the staff here are amazing. I have met awesome people and made friendships which I am sure will last even after I finish working here. It’s almost like a little family. There have been dramas but when I think about my last 2 months working here, everyone has gotten along with each other.
We give a lot of stick to our team leaders, but again, I think this is one of the nicest management teams I have had experience with. Not only in Korea but back home too. It’s come to light to me in the last couple of weeks that team leaders have to do things that the director tells them too. The problems are coming from the director.

The whole time I have worked here, I haven’t really had a problem with working. Although I do complain a lot to my co-workers! The biggest issue I had was the apartment. I already wrote a post about that so I won’t mention it much here. You can go and read it here.
I always knew, but it put it in concrete that  your home has a big affect on your mood and productivity. I was and still am so unhappy in my apartment that my mood would be down all the time. There was never one day where I woke up and felt happy and in a good mood. I always wake up thinking ‘Well, I better get up and go to work.’ There was never a day where I thought, ‘I want to go home and just chill.’
I also wasn’t getting good nights sleep. Nightmares and hearing traffic outside or the neighbours. My door lock randomly ringing. So many things that distracted me from getting a good nights sleep.

Not getting enough sleep, paired with teaching classes of 19-52 students in the morning, is never something that I will get used to. Yes, the classes I taught were fun and sometimes interesting, I don’t think there is anything that makes teaching 52 students okay. It’s draining. Sometimes there are good schools, with kids that actually want to learn and enjoy your classes. But most of the times, we had terrible schools with children who swear, don’t take part in class and constantly talk over you.

Overall, as much as I complain, (and I know I complain a lot so I have mentioned it several times in this post!) I enjoyed working at this school. I am only sad to leave the amazing teachers I have met working here.

So the future?

Well, as you guys may or may not know, I studied Journalism and I still want to be a journalist. Unfortunately, finding work other than an English teacher in Korea is hard. I am looking for journalism jobs and I am hoping to blog more. I wish to make a living out of my blog, but I know I still have a long way to go.

I have taught for over 2 years now and I know it is not a career that I want to continue doing.
So, if you have any journalist friends in Korea, please let me know and let them know about me!

This coming week, I am going to be busier than ever. But after I finish working here, I am hoping that I will have enough time to blog more!

Until then, wish me luck and stay tuned!

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Signing away freedom

March 2016 marked two years for me in Korea. two years and my third company in the same field.

While I have said this on multiple occasions, this time I am fighting the urge to quite my job and move on. But if only life was that easy. Every day, I feel more and more trapped in my work place and the tiny room that I should be calling ‘home’.
I know, you are probably wondering “what is stopping you if you are that unhappy?”. It’s pretty simple. Contract.

Being an ESL teacher in Korea means that you have to get an E2 visa which is bonded with your employer. Once you want to stop your employment with the company you have signed a contract with, you have to get a ‘Letter of release’ and you can transfer to another visa (D-10 or another E2).

Sounds simple, right? Wrong.

Most companies refuse to give you a letter of release if your contract is not finished. Honestly, if you have completed your one year contract, there is no need for you to obtain a ‘letter of release’ anyway. The only people who need a ‘letter of release’ are those who wish to finish their contract earlier than one year or, those who have been fired and wish to stay in Korea. But when a company refuses to give you one, it is almost impossible to do anything about it.

When I signed my contract, I saw that there was a section which said that I will not receive a release letter if I end my contract before the 1 year mark. Even if I give the requested 3 months notice before leaving. I know I shouldn’t have signed the contract if I didn’t agree with that term. The problem was, I didn’t want to face another hard time of trying to find a new job. It took me three months the first time, I wasn’t going to go through that again. So when I was offered a job on the second day of unemployment, I went for it. It was a reputable company funded by Seoul government, what could possibly be wrong? Honestly, I love this company. The staff, the fun classes, my students, but teaching just isn’t for me.

When I came to Korea, I came with the hopes of teaching English for a year and either start my career as a journalist/editor or go back to university here to get my masters degree. My first job was a disaster. For my second job, I got promoted fast and I loved it, but then management changed and it was a nightmare. So, when I hit my two year mark in my third school, I couldn’t stop thinking about how I have wasted two years of my life. Two years where I could have been doing other things to do with my degree and my dreams.

So, next Tuesday marks three months until my contract is finished. Within these three months, I will be searching for jobs and blogging more in order to get back in the flow of writing. I will try to write blog posts at the least 3 times a week. If I fall behind, scold me guys!!

This week, I have already posted twice, so I will post another on Friday. I am going to try something new so, keep an eye out!

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2016

Well, 2016 has started! We are on the 8th day and it is my sisters birthday! Happy Birthday Dalia!!

I’m sitting at my desk at work. I’ve finished my assignments for the week and I thought, this is the perfect time for a blog post.

But I have no idea what to write about.

I feel like this is the issue with me and my blog. I don’t have a solid ground. Nothing that I can constantly write about. No category that I can continuously write on. Nothing that I feel passionate about enough to make the theme of my blog.

In 2014 and 2015, I focused mostly on blogging about my dates and the crazy experiences that I had. While it was good for my blog traffic wise, dating is draining. I found myself dating people just for the sake of hoping to meet someone to settle down with or an experience that I can write a blog about.
Of course, like most people I know, I had bad luck with dating and it was probably because I was looking for someone to love me. But I also didn’t like what I was doing to people. I felt bad for the few people who I only continued dating just so that I could write a blog post about them. I was aware that I hurt two people in specific. They never found my blog… at least I don’t think they did… but when I was fed up of dating them because I was never really interested in them, I realised that I was doing the same thing that some guys have probably done to me.
I know and those of you who follow my blog or know me personally know that I was extremely hurt by one person in particular in 2015, The Model. Even to this day I feel hurt when I think about him. I feel as though he hurt me more harshly than I have hurt a few guys, but it doesn’t make me any better than him. I wasn’t considering the guys feelings. I was selfish.
After The Model, I didn’t really make many posts about the people I’ve dated. I actually went on fewer dates and chose the people who I considered dating more carefully. But the main reason why I stopped was because I was ashamed to show guys who I dated seriously my blog.

When I am dating guys they often ask me what my hobby is, I tell them writing of course and eventually it comes out that I have a blog. They always ask me what my blog is about, funnily enough I don’t think they would appreciate me saying ‘Ah you know, the normal things like the guys I date and how weird they are or how in love with them I am.’
When I was dating The Model, he asked to see my blog and I couldn’t show it to him. I wanted him to know everything about me but I knew that I had written about him and even worse, other guys. He probably would have been okay with what I wrote about him before he tore my heart out. But anyway! My point is, I wanted him to see my blog, I valued his opinion and wanted him to be a part of everything that I did. Although I don’t update my blog as regularly as I should, I love this blog. It’s mine.
Even after The Model, I wanted to show my blog to other guys but I knew I couldn’t. Even adding each other on Facebook was too risky.

Did I just go off topic??

Anyway! I want to change my blog. I don’t know yet what I will change it to, it will probably still be personal but just not about dating. I know you guys loved it but it’s hard now! I promise that I will try to find something just as interesting to write about. And I value all of your opinions so much. I hope that you will make suggestions and give me feedback on the things that I write about so I know what you like!

On top of new topics, I am also going to try to blog more consistently. To start, I will post every other Friday. If I am stuck for ideas, I will make a silly post haha! I just have to get into the habit of posting at certain times.

So! Let’s get this show on the road! I have 3 and a half hours left until the end of today, unless I get told to do something else. If I can think of something I will start planning the new blog! Give me suggestionsssssss!

Thanks for always reading guys! I really appreciate it!

 

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The box.

With a new job, comes a new apartment. There is usually no choice when it comes to being an English teacher in Korea. I was very comfortable in my home in Bucheon. When I got this job, I knew that staying there wouldn’t be an option as it would have meant an hour commute to work every day. While it didn’t bother me much, I knew that the company wouldn’t agree, just in case I turned up to work late.

While I was happy to have gotten a job in Seoul, I knew that ending up with an apartment as amazing as mine, was going to be impossible. When I was offered the job, it was made very clear that the apartment was going to be small. I asked for pictures, and while they looked terrible, I thought I had to suck it up. There was no way I was going to let such a good job go.

However, the apartment which I was shown in the pictures was nothing like the apartment I was taken to on the Friday that I was supposed to be moving in to my apartment. Although it was made clear that the picture I was shown may not be my apartment, I was shocked.

The place which I am going to have to call my home is so small that I can barely move around. I went back to my home in Bucheon that Friday night and started to repack. I had to throw out more things than I already had since I would be living in a shoebox for a while.

The Saturday after I was shown the apartment, I reluctantly moved my things. I said goodbye to my lovely home in Bucheon and hello to my box in Seoul. I tried my hardest to stay positive. I told myself that it was just somewhere to sleep and that I would hardly spend time there. I thought maybe if I unpacked my things and decorated, it would be better.
So I unpacked, while it made the room a tiny bit better, I still hated the new place. It’s depressing. There is a window, which honestly might as well not be there. There is no sunlight coming through. I worry for Aurora everyday because I know she is used to having a big bright apartment. Her pupils have been dilated since we moved in. Whilst I have read it is okay for cats, I thinking, it’s a bit like torture.

There is terrible brown coloured wallpaper which makes everything seem darker and dirty. It is the most revolting wallpaper you could imagine. Not only is that wallpaper terrible, it is only the accent wall. The rest of the room is what used to be white wallpaper. It is dirty and has stains that I can’t even identify.

I have a single bed. After having a Queen sized bed for over 6 months, I felt like I was going to fall out of the single bed. Not only is it a single, it is also the hardest, must uncomfortable bed I have ever slept in.

The kitchen, or what is supposed to be a kitchen, is so tiny. I have one electric stove hob thingy, which is built into the counter. The cupboards are a terribly bright orange colour. There is literally no room for a kettle, toaster, or any kind of utensil stand or things that you usually have on a kitchen counter. Also, if I wanted to use that hob, I would have to put on my shoes because the only floor space there is the place where you take of your shoes as you walk into the box.

And, right next to it, 1 step away and I am not exaggerating, is the bathroom.

The bathroom is tiny and literally everything gets wet when I have a shower. It has the smallest window you could ever imagine so I smell mould every time I walk in to my apartment, even if the window is open. It is also a terrible brown and grey tile scheme.

Having said that, the bathroom is my favourite part of the box. That’s because it is the newest and cleanest part of the apartment.

On my first day of work, I bumped into the director in the lift. He asked me how my apartment was and so I told him how things were broken and that it is too small and dirty and everything that was wrong. He told me to tell the coordinator so that they can fix things. I told him everything because he was the first person to ask me.

The next day, the guy who organises apartments and stuff for the foreign teachers asked me what my door code was. I asked why and he told me that the director wants to see my apartment and the apartment of the other girls that live in that building.

I was a bit reluctant, but the guy reassured me that it was going to work in my benefit and he hinted at us possibly being moved. I told him my door code and then I was told that because I complained to the director, who apparently does not usually speak to the teachers, he wants to see the condition of the apartment and help us a bit.

He hasn’t come to see my apartment yet. But another person in a high position told me that when the contract of that apartment ends, I will be moved to a bigger and better place. The catch is, the contract finishes in March. So I have to wait about 4 months.

I have decorated the place a bit better now but it is still far too small. I guess I just have to wait a while and hope that the next apartment I am moved to is better. It will be my 8th apartment since moving to Korea.

But as I mentioned before, the job is amazing. I just feel that I would do a better job if my apartment was nicer as my mood would be better.

Wish me luck!