Just 5 weeks left until my dissertation is due and I have been suffering from writers block for more than a week. Before then it was just sheer laziness but now I want to write but my mind goes blank.
My dissertation topic is so under-researched so I have to do three-four different fields of research. Popular culture, Fandom, Identity & Adoption. Identity among adopted people is such a sensitive subject that many people are scared to research into it.
Stupidly, in my mind I thought it was a good idea to have a unique dissertation title so it would be different. I failed to realise that in doing so it will make my dissertation so much harder to do!
Along with the pain of research, I have to do five interviews that should last between 30 minutes and an hour and a half. Also the people who I have to interview are hard to find in London.
(If there are any adopted Koreans living in London, please contact me! You will be saving my life! Even if you don’t live in London, Skype can connect us so get in touch please!)
But I know all this hard work will pay off. Once the cloud above my head has passed and I manage to start writing, I am confident that I will do well. If this dissertation goes the way I have planned, it will be a success. Not only for the grade I will get and how it will impact my degree, but as an under-researched topic. Having something I can call my own and have published is my dream.
My friend has his graduation ceremony today & this morning when I woke up I realised how much I appreciate him & thought I’d let him know.
Although we have only known each other for a few months, I feel like you understand me more than most people I have known longer. I don’t have to make an effort when I’m around you because we just naturally have fun because you like me for who I am.
We have so much in common & we have only met each other this summer! And even when we have different thoughts & opinions, we accept it & move on without arguing.
We bonded in Seoul & although most people that we met in Seoul spent 24hrs with each other when they were there, they don’t see each other now. But thats not the case with us! I feel like we have become closer in London. If I don’t see you once a week it feels strange!
When I introduced you to a friend of mine & I told them that you are like a brother to me, I really meant it.
Tadiwa, I am truley proud of you for graduating & I want to say thank you for being so awesome! Although I wish I had met you sooner, I am glad we met in Korea because we now have the same hopes for our future! Can’t wait until we are back in Korea!! =D
This Wednesday, I have to do a presentation and I have an essay due. Of course, I have left it all to the last minute.
Every year, every September and January to be exact, I say to myself that I will be good this year and start my assignments as soon as I get them. (-_-) Who am I kidding?!
I started my presentation today. It is almost 11pm and I have not finished it yet. I haven’t even started the essay that accompanies my presentation, which means I will start and finish it tomorrow.
If my modules for my Journalism were actually practice, I would not have this problem. What is the point in taking a Journalism course if it is 90% theory?! My writing has not improved as far as I know because I have only had one module which required me to write articles. The lack of practical modules has made me kind of regret not studying Film or Music. To become a Journalist, it is not necessary to have a Journalism degree and frankly, it is a waste of time.
Anyway, only 6 months of uni left for me! I can’t wait to start writing my dissertation! After I graduate, inshaallah, I will be in Korea! =D My blog will then be 70x more interesting!
In the mean time, wish me luck with this freaking presentation and essay!