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No regrets

As some of you know, I was recently dating a guy from Korea. Unfortunately, he went back to Korea and he decided that a long distance relationship was not the way he wanted to go. Although I was upset, I am grateful for the time we spent together in London and while most people will regret everything in my situation, I don’t. I did doubt that a long distance relationship would work but I had the intentions of trying it but I suppose it really wasn’t meant to be.

Although we were aware that our time was going to be short when we started dating, I had a great time with him. I really enjoyed his company and I felt that we had a connection. I’m usually really awkward when there is silence, but I felt so comfortable with you.

I am far from the adventurous type but I was more open to trying things out of my norm with him. We went to Liverpool and Manchester on our last weekend together, you took me to my first football match, we went to my favourite museum, the theatre and would just hangout when we wanted to. You were really supportive when I found out about my mum and you asked about her progress almost everyday, as if you had known her. We had a lot in common that we didn’t realise. I loved the way you would ask me what I wanted to eat even though you knew I would always answer, ‘I don’t know, anything, I don’t mind!’.

And our last sunset together was beautiful.
liverpool sunset

Our time together was short, but our relationship meant more to me than any of my longer relationships. When I cried on the coach I must have really freaked you out! I’m sorry. =P I was emotional from lack of sleep and I kept thinking about the fact it was our last weekend together. I miss you but to have you as a friend is awesome and I hope we will meet again when I go back to Korea. I know time difference is a big problem and you are probably really busy but please stay in contact as often as you can.

The only thing I regret, is not telling you how thankful I am for everything you did for me and our time together.

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When I uploaded my Big Bang Alive Tour: London pt 2 post, I mentioned a video of the encore footage I recorded. I recorded the footage on my phone but when I downloaded it on my laptop, the sound was out of sync so I deleted the file.

I tried to upload it from my phone using the WordPress app. I thought it went through okay because it uploaded the post. But then my phone went crazy. The WordPress app was causing problems with storage on my Galaxy S2 and even though I deleted almost every other app on my phone, I was getting the same storage error message. Since I had no other choice, I deleted the WordPress app. My phone started working properly again.

Just now, I went to have a look at my post to see if the video uploaded, it’s not there. I check my phone so I can upload the video to YouTube, every image and every video has been deleted from my phone. =[

I’m so depressed!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

I actually feel like crying!! =[ Topless Taeyang and TOP in my face is now lost forever. =[ This week sucks and it’s only Monday. So many apologies for the fact there is no video in my previous post. =[ I’m hoping I stumble across the file I deleted on my laptop. Maybe I’m waking and I’ll wake up tomorrow and it will be there.

Actually if I’m hoping for things, I’d hope to wake up to Mr Choi Seung-hyun next to me. lol

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If you haven’t already, read my posts =D  & =D pt. 2 before reading this.

So, I purchased two tickets to see Jeremy Passion in London on the 31st of March. Since none of my friends listen to Passion, I didn’t want to go by myself so I thought, I’ll purchase two tickets and then figure out who to go with. That’s when I realised that I could ask the guy that I like!

I had it all planned out! I would ask him on Friday (yesterday).

So I went into uni, and the weather was amazing! Everyone was out on the grass on campus and having some cool drinks. Then, I saw him! He looked so hot! Then he disappeared and showed up with a girl. The girl I always used to see him with. They were holding hands, hugging, kissing and it was so heart breaking. =[

I also found out that someone I know has known him since college. I asked her a few questions about him (I know it sounds stalker-ish!). She mentioned a long term relationship. But like I said in my previous posts, he said that he was single. Now he is back with her.

I don’t know if I am happy that I didn’t ask him out or ‘make a move’, or if I regret not doing anything.

The first thing I thought was, I should have said something. But then I thought about what would have happened if I did say something. I would have still got hurt. If it went well, we would have went out on a date, got to know each other more, I would fall for him even more and then he would have gotten back together with his ex.

But now I am thinking, what did I have to lose? It could have went the other way and I might have been with him now.

Now, I am kicking myself because this isn’t the first time this has happened to me with a guy. I am too shy. And even with all my friends telling me to go and talk to him I didn’t have the guts to. And I really need to grow some balls.

It’s very rare for me to like someone so much. Every time I do like someone that much, I don’t get anything out of it.

I know it’s rich coming from me, since I have no balls but, girls, please, if you like someone, do something about it because if you don’t another girl who is more confident will get him. I wish I had seen that sooner. And the worst thing that could happen is that you will know that he doesn’t feel the same. That is actually a good thing because you know where you stand and you have closure.

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